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Thursday, December 23, 2010

Thursday, December 23, 2010 - MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Had R-9 (Radiation #9) this morning!  Only 24 left!

I had my weekly BNI meeting this morning (which, by the way, it is so great to be able to regularly attend again; I was missing a lot of them during chemo because they fell when I was feeling the lowest every over week) at 7:30 AM.  Left immediately at 9:00 to head to Waconia for radiation.  When I came in to the waiting room, look what was there:  Santa sitting reading the paper and drinking a cup of coffee while a crackling fire and holiday music emanated from the wide-screen HDTV!  What a place!

After my ray gun treatment, I had my weekly meeting with Dr. Sperduto.  I have no skin irritation (yet) or any other sign of what the radiation is doing to me (yet).  So the appointment was rather short.  Since I have to come with either a question or a joke every week, I had a question:  The study materials say no alcohol during radiation.  I asked him if he had a "zero tolerance" policy, or could I have a glass of wine with my Christmas dinner.  He said, "Have the wine.  Just keep it in moderation."  (Whew.  I think that covers the small glass of Bailey's I had a week ago, too.)

Can't believe Christmas is upon us already!  Hoping for a calm, low-key holiday.  Glazed spiral-sliced ham, scalloped potatoes, baked beans, vegetable, rolls -- and 3 pies again!  :)

Merry Christmas, everyone.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

December 14, 2010 - Radiation

I started my daily radiation treatments yesterday.  I wanted to be able to go at 9:15 every day, so I'd have plenty of time to get to the shop to open at 10AM.  But the best they could do was to schedule me at 9:45 - so I can't open until 10:30 every day.  I'll need to change my Hours of Business sign.

So, every day I go to the oncology clinic and sit in the waiting room until they call me.  Tuesday is a day when all they are doing all day is radiations - no consultations.  So everyone in the waiting room is just waiting for their 15 minutes with the ray gun.

When I get into the radiation room, my "pillow" (not to be confused with My Pillow, the greatest pillow in the world, created right here in Carver, MN) is waiting for me on the table.  It's a mold that was taken of my head (positioned to the side) and arms (up over my head) so that each time I go for a treatment, I'm in the exact same position I was in when they took the initial measurements.  They take a few minutes to position me on the table so that my little freckle-sized tattoos are positioned exactly where they need them, then I get a series of blasts from the ray gun.

When I say "they," I'm referring to Molly and Julie, the technicians who operate that machine.  They're the most cheerful people I've ever met, constantly using words like "perfect," "great," and "awesome" when lining me up for my blasts.

I get four blasts, each from a different location, radiating my entire left breast as well as lymph nodes in my neck.  There's nothing to see, and I don't feel a thing.  But eventually (after a couple of weeks) these treatments begin to add up and I will start feeling the symptoms of severe sunburn, like tingling, pink skin, burning, red skin, possibly peeling, etc.  For this reason, they recommend that I apply 100% aloe gel to the area every day, even twice a day - or more.

Another side effect is fatigue, although Dr. Sperduto (pictured, left) didn't think the fatigue from radiation would be as great as the fatigue I experienced from chemo.  We'll have to see.

According to Dr. Sperduto, this radiation will do some irreparable damage to a small portion of my left lung, which is "in the way" of the blasts, but I probably won't even notice.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

I still haven't fully recovered from the brutal week I put in last week.  But I am starting to feel a little more normal.

Dr. Sperduto's (my radiation oncologist) office called today to schedule the finalization of my radiation plan, which we will do tomorrow afternoon.  Then Monday my weekday treatments will begin.  I'm sure, judging from how quickly the 16 weeks of chemo went, that the next six weeks will breeze by.

Sunday, December 5, 2011

Thankfully, it was a short day at the shop today.  Al & I went to Perkins for breakfast, and the shop was only open from 10AM - 2PM.  My friend, Marcia, came at 2:00 to give me acupuncture - poor dear has a broken arm (a victim of the ice storm we had earlier).

At 4:30, my friend Ann came over, and the three of us walked across the street to the Pumas, where we had a lovely champagne celebration of the end of my chemo treatments.  They had great hors d'ouevres that I ate so much of, I didn't need any dinner the rest of the night.  We had a lovely time with our dear neighbors.

Friday, December 3, 2010

It would have been nice to have been able to sleep in this morning, after all I had been through during the week.  But, no.  I had an 8:00 AM consultation with my radiation oncologist, whom I was just meeting for the first time today.  Al came with me, and as we sat in the waiting room (we got there at 7:30), I tried not to think about how tired and sore I was.

During this consultation I learned exactly what radiation does, what its side effects are, and what to expect from the machine.  They lined up the various angles of the beam (I’ll be getting four zaps every day), and gave me four little freckle-sized tattoos so that each time everything will line up correctly.  Then I had to go to the hospital imaging center for a CT scan.  With all of this data, the doctor will develop the final radiation plan which we will meet on one more time before radiation starts on Dec. 13.

They had told me to expect a 1.5 hour appointment, so I fully expected to be back at the shop by 10:00.  But things went more slowly than expected, and I didn’t get back to the shop until 11:30.  Bev opened the shop for me, although she wasn’t going to be able to ring up any sales.  But she at least was able to let people in and explain my absence.  On the way in, I had stopped at the McDonald’s drive through, and after eating felt much better.

I tried to spend the rest of the day sitting down as much as possible.  Considering this was still part of the occasional shop weekend, I still had a couple of sales days to get through.  But December is never one of the busiest weekends for the sales.

Thursday, December 2, 2010 -- SAVVY SOIREE DAY

I slept fitfully all night, thinking of things that needed to be done and worrying about whether we’d be ready when the Soiree was supposed to start.  I went in to the shop at 7:00 AM, and worked in the back room until about 8:45, then headed home to let the air duct cleaners in.  Unfortunately, they were running behind, so didn’t get to our house until 9:45.  I gave them a quick tour of where the furnace was, where each of the vents and cold air returns were, then left to go back to the shop.  They said they’d be there for 4.5 hours today. 

The first friend to show up was Ann, shortly after I got back at 10:00 AM.  She started vacuuming.  Then Bonny and Connie showed up.  They set up their areas, then asked what they could do to help me.  Then came Suzanne, all the way from Dayton (by Rogers), and a while after that Luda arrived (from Zimmerman).  These five ladies kept me sane.  Suzanne and Luda are from my floristry school, so they made a few arrangements for the cooler and did whatever I asked.  All of them were awesome.  Before I knew it, it was approaching 5:00 PM, and the shop looked amazing.  Alena showed up with her gourmet cookies, Connie brought back shortbread, and Bonny brought mini-cupcakes.  Bev and Sharon also arrived to help.  These people are the reason I got through this event.

Although I was mostly numb by that point, I was conscious enough to realize that the event was happening, people were filing in, the CD player was playing Christmas music, and it was going just fine.  John, our speaker, did an amazing job and everyone asked him a lot of very good questions.  We gave away tons of door prizes, and there were a lot of squeals of delight.  I was also ringing up sales, which Ann, Suzanne, and Luda were alternately bagging up for customers.  Customers were saying wonderful things about how darling our shop was, and what nice merchandise we had, and that they would certainly be back. 

When it was over, Suzanne and Luda helped clean up, while Bonny, Connie, Melody and Roberta were packing up their things.  I think it was 9:00 PM when I got home.  I, of course, had to tell Al all about everything (and knew I was forgetting things).  It took awhile to unwind enough to get to bed, but a nice warm soaking bath helped.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

I took two sleeping pills last night, and slept hard, like a rock.  In fact, I found it hard to wake up this morning.  When I got to the shop, there were boxes and boxes of fresh flower product that had been delivered early this morning for my Soiree – poinsettias, roses, lilies, etc., etc.  It took an hour or two to process the flowers and unbox the plants and set them out.

I realized that my ad deadline for the January, 2011 Savvy.MN magazine was due today, so stopped everything to get that done.  Then I got a call from my friend, Matt, who does our heating and plumbing.  I had let him know weeks before that I wanted to get our air ducts cleaned and sanitized, because my allergies had been really bothering me during the chemo.  Matt was calling me to schedule air duct cleaning tomorrow.  TOMORROW.  Like I needed another thing to worry about tomorrow.  But they have been so busy they were way behind schedule, and if I didn’t take that appointment, who knew when he’d get back to me with another time.  So I said, OK.

I had declined any help for today or tonight, thinking I wasn’t sure how long I was going to be able to last myself.  I worked on things all day – primarily trying to get the back room cleaned up for the refreshment area.  But at the end of the day, after spending the entire day on my feet, I was exhausted, achy, and depressed – it didn’t look like I had accomplished enough.  But I had to quit.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

I couldn't sleep again last night.  The night of every chemo appointment is a night of insomnia, due to the steriods in the anti-nausea drugs I get.  At 2:00 AM I was still wide awake, but I thought I'd better at least try to sleep.  I lay awake in bed until 4:30, when I got up, went downstairs, and read.  I heard Al get up at 5:30 and take his shower,  He suggested I try again, so at 6:30 I went back to bed -- and did manage to sleep until 8:30 AM.

Still feeling pretty good, though – high energy, no pain, a little heartburn – but Wednesday evening and Thursday will be the real test, to see if foregoing the shot had any measurable impact on my body’s reaction to the chemo.

I worked on Soiree prep all day today – unpacking new product that’s been coming in, pricing it and entering it into inventory.  We opened a few new lines in anticipation of a bunch of new people (48 have signed up so far) coming in to see our wares – we got Thymes fragranced body products, Abdallah  chocolates, gourmet gift basket items (like crackers, summer sausage, cheese, etc.). 

I also brought over all the rest of the Christmas décor (wreaths, swags, faux evergreen pots, etc.) in the hope that I’d get some help decorating the space (including the “non-occupied” half of the room).  Sure enough, three wonderful friends – Sharon Hartung, Kathy von Walter, and Diane Villars – offered to come in tonight for a couple of hours to be my slaves.

In less than two hours, they transformed the front room – all the new product was beautifully displayed, all the wreaths and swags hung, and the tops of the tall shelves and cupboards were decorated.  It gave me a new appreciation for the phrase: “Many hands make work light.”

Monday, November 29, 2010 -- LAST CHEMO TREATMENT! YAY!

Wow, has the last 4 months flown!  I remember when I was looking at 16 weeks of chemo and thinking that seemed like a long time.  Now, after today’s treatment, it’s over already! 

This last chemo appointment was scheduled the earliest in the day of all of the treatments – 8:30 AM lab, 9:00 Dr. Appt, 9:30-1:30 chemo – which was good, because Cheryl had to be at the airport for a 3:30 PM flight back to CA.  We decided that she would come with me to the lab, Dr. appt, and to see me get started on the chemo – just so she would have a better picture of what this is all about.  So she was able to meet Dr. B – they chatted briefly about what a great place San Diego is to live (although Cher lives in Oceanside, she tells people she lives in San Diego since it’s more likely they know where that is).

Anyway, Dr. B gave me a gift – since my blood cell levels have been so strong throughout the chemo process, he decided I did not need a shot this time.  AND I do not need to continue to come in every Monday for weekly labs.  That was nice to hear.  I’m hoping the absence of the shot will mean higher energy levels and less foot/leg pain.  We’ll see.

So after Cher met Michelle, my chemo technician, and I got hooked up to my IV, she took her leave to go back home, finish packing, maybe get in a nap before she had to come pick me up again.  She said she felt guilty about leaving, but I explained to her that I was looking forward to four hours of reading.

Cher came back around 12:30 – I thought I’d be done by then, but it took another 45 minutes for the drip to finish, even with Michelle periodically cranking it up.  We said goodbye, and headed for the airport.  Of course, my chemo brain took over.  I brought her to the wrong Terminal (even though I knew she was flying Sun Country, as she always does).  She still had plenty of time, though.

After I dropped her off, I headed back to the shop.  Even though I had posted a sign saying we’d be closed all day, I needed all the time I could get to prep the shop for Thursday’s Soiree.  A moment here about the Soiree:

Back in May or June, I made the conscious decision to pull all my ad dollars out of the various places that weren’t really producing verifiable business – like Chaska Herald ads, the Villager Tower, map ads, restaurant ad boards, and other things we’ve tried (not that there’s anything wrong with these advertisements; it’s just that I have never had anyone come in to the shop saying “I saw your ad in the Herald.”) – and devote nearly all ad revenues for the subsequent 12 months to Savvy.MN magazine (also published by SW Newspapers).  That’s turned out to be a good decision, because nearly every month I get customers asking to see the item I advertised in Savvy.MN.  And I get people coming in to pick up the monthly magazine. 

Anyway, at that time (June) I also decided to partner with Savvy.MN on one of their monthly Soirees (they provide publicity, some refreshments and some door prizes; I provide an educational event, a promotion for the night, some refreshments and some door prizes).  All good – except that in June, I didn’t know I had cancer; and I didn’t know the date I picked for the Soiree (Dec. 2) would be three days after my final chemo treatment.

So now I’m looking at three days until the Soiree, and there’s SO MUCH to be done!

Thursday, November 25, 2010 - Thanksgiving Day

My daughter, Cheryl, was with us this week from California.  So nice to have her here.  She helped a lot in the shop – doing a couple of deliveries, but mostly getting her mother motivated to get some cleaning done for our upcoming Soiree on Dec 2.  Cher is a cleaner, so she reorganized the stuff in the back room this week (I hope I can find things again when she’s gone).  She’s announced that this weekend we’re going to address the piles of papers I have lying around.  Not looking forward to that project.

Thanksgiving was actually one of the nicest we’ve had.  Due to my lower energy levels, the dinner menu was a much scaled-down affair.  No “from scratch” pies or side dishes.  We focused on the simple basics:  11 lb turkey (not the 23 pounders we’ve been known to get in the past because we love leftovers), Stovetop stuffing (with a twist; see below), steamed mixed vegetables (from a pre-packed bag), mashed potatoes and gravy, canned whole cranberry sauce, bread rack brown n serve rolls, Jell-O chocolate pudding pie and two frozen pies – Mrs. Smith’s pumpkin and Edward’s Lemon Maringue.  And not only was there more than enough food, it was very flavorful with little extra effort.

SOME RECIPES & TIPS HERE
Turkey.  I made my turkey the way I always do – brining it overnight being the most important step to any roast turkey.  Yes, it’s an extra step, but it’s really very little effort (the hardest part being remembering to do it) and makes a 1000% difference in the moistness and tenderness of the turkey (I also do this with chicken breasts prior to barbecuing).  Here’s how:  put the thawed (or nearly-thawed; it will complete thawing in the brine) turkey in a clean puncture-proof kitchen trash bag, then put that into something that will contain it, when it’s filled with brine, in your refrigerator.  I use a plastic office-size waste basket.  Mix brine at a ratio of 1 cup of salt to 1 gallon of water and pour it over the turkey in the trash bag.  How much brine you need depends on the size of your turkey, but it must be completely covered in brine.  2 gallons covered my 11 lb turkey.  Tie up the trash bag and refrigerate overnight (ideal), or at least 4 hours.

Before preparing the turkey for the oven, remove it from the brine, rinse it and pat it dry with paper towel.  My tried and true method for roasting a turkey is as follows:  Slice up one or two medium onions and lay them on the bottom of the roasting pan so that the turkey will cover them completely (if they’re exposed, they’re likely to burn and ruin your gravy).  Place the turkey on the onions, breast side up and wings tucked in.  Cut an onion, a couple of carrots and a couple stalks of celery into chunks and insert them (with some fresh herbs, like rosemary or thyme) into the cavity of the turkey.  (We always make our stuffing separately and do not put it in the turkey.  But the vegetables keep the turkey from drying out, and have a dual purpose later.)  Once the turkey is stuffed with vegetables, I salt and pepper the outside, and coat it with a thin layer flour.  Then I butter the outside.  Yes, just like you’re buttering bread, I spread butter all over the outside of the turkey with a butter knife.  Finally, I dust the entire turkey with paprika.  Then it’s into the oven.  See?  That’s not a lot of effort to prepare a turkey for roasting.

Gravy.  When the turkey is done, I remove it from the roasting pan to a platter and cover it with aluminum foil.  I remove the onions with a slotted spoon (you can add these back to your gravy if you like) and pour all the juices into a large separator.  Once the fat settles to the top, I pour the de-fatted drippings back into the roasting pan, reserving ¼ cup of the fat for my roux.  I add about 3-4 cups of chicken broth to the drippings in the roasting pan and bring that to a boil, scraping the sides of the pan for all the browned bits.  Once the drippings/broth comes to a boil, I pour it into a pan and set it aside on simmer to keep warm. 

I take out my large saucepan, add the reserved fat, and get it sizzling hot.  Then I whisk in ¼ cup of flour to make a paste (the roux).  I continue cooking this for a minute or two, until it gets a nice golden brown.  Then I slowly add the drippings/broth mixture, whisking constantly while it’s added.  (This takes some help from Al to do – he adds the stock while I whisk.)  Whisking constantly, add all the drippings/broth.  Bring to a boil.  Now, here’s the real shocker!  At this point, I add an envelope of dry turkey gravy mix, which I have first mixed in a cup with a little water, to get all the lumps out.  It thickens the gravy, adds some darker color, and brings out the flavor of the drippings.

Stuffing.  OK, I already said I used Stovetop stuffing, with a twist.  Here’s the twist.  All of those vegetables I put in the turkey cavity?  Why waste them?  I took them all out and, in a couple of batches, chopped them up on a cutting board.  Once the Stovetop was done, I stirred in the cooked chopped vegetables.  The stuffing was delicious!!

So … the moral of this post is:  a chemo patient can still make a fabulous Thanksgiving spread.  Just don’t be afraid to use pre-packaged, boxed or frozen ingredients!  If the entire family hadn’t been standing in the kitchen watching me and looking for ways to help, no one would have known that the entire meal wasn’t “from scratch.”